November New Moon

Tonight’s New Moon is in Scorpio and I can already feel a sense of renewal. I spent the night before reflecting on some aspects of my life that I desire to change and found myself looking at the situations quite matter-of-factly. I starting thinking with a proactive attitude on how I could initiate change. The Universe is always going to give back what it receives, and I can see quite clearly now that the ‘rut’ I felt I was in, was quite simply the giving and returning of the very same, negative energy. How could I expect any of my goals to come into fruition if I wasn’t showing the Universe that I was willing to put in the work? I guess you could say the New Moon ignited this passion within me, that I thought had burnt out. I feel particularly motivated with the knowledge that this particular New Moon is in Scorpio, and the all or nothing attitude that comes along with the sign made me ask that very question… All or nothing? Do I want to put in the work or do nothing? Do I want to achieve all my goals or none of them? Am I going to give it my all or give nothing? This might not the best way to handle every situation but at this point in my life, those were the questions I needed to be asking. And the answer was simple; all. So this morning I woke up feeling utterly inspired. I decided to be as productive as possible today, deep cleaning my space, developing a posting schedule for both my blog and YouTube (which will have content back on it on Monday), writing this very blog post… and let me tell you I can already feel myself reaping the benefits already. Tonight I will be experiencing my first New Moon ritual and I feel immense amounts of hope, gratitude and love as I explore more goals and dreams of mine. I feel strong and able to truly go after what I want in life and I can see the light at the end of what has felt like a very dark, desolate tunnel.

Please know that if you are going through a tough time, you do have the power to make a change and you are a beautiful being on this earth. If you have the chance, take the time tonight to think about what you dream of and take a step (even if it’s a baby step) towards your goal. Who knows what beauty may lay ahead… xx

Love & Light

-Mena ❤

Master of Disguise

Oh, master of disguise

What a big surprise

Everyday a new charade

Self expression – so it’s fine

 

Oh, master of disguise

Open and close your eyes

But if you look inside

Broken pieces misfit

And the pieces are her

Self love – so distant

 

Oh, master of disguise

Always chasing a new sunrise

Cover your tracks

Looking back

Self-conscious – and confined

 

Oh, master of disguise

Something beyond

That which the human eye can recognize

Not the mask in which you hide

But to the sublime

Being within

Self-awareness heightens – to the divine

 

And if you wonder where she went…

She never left

And if you wonder who she is…

She is Light.

bliss.

This morning while taking a shower I thought, I must find Bliss. Before I had the chance to ponder where Bliss could be hiding, my counterpart chimed “You don’t ‘find‘ Bliss, you feel it. Finding it suggests that it went away. It is here. Feel it.”

 

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The Sandglass

I turn on the sink and cup water in my hands before splashing it on my sandpaper skin. I rub in the cool sensation until I am no longer in my bathroom and the water tastes like salt. And as the waves crash against my skin by the force of Mother Nature herself, I am calm and loved. Flashbacks of my summer existence and the inexplicable bliss, like the sun kissing my cheeks and the ocean hugging my body. My, oh my. 

I start rubbing ‘Angels on Bare Skin’ between my fingers and it is no longer a face scrub but the gritty sand I’m standing in, and my face; the sand sculpture. Suddenly, I am the sculptor and the work of art, all at once. What a liberation!

In comes the tide, and my sand sculpture washes away. I feel the salty sea water spray my face, like a mist.

My eyes are closed and the sun is beating down on my face. The contrast of the warmth and the cool cream I rub against my skin is heavenly. I am balanced.

 

My eyes;  they open. My skin is clean. 

I feel Bliss caress my cheek.

Oh hey, I still exist!

Well, the title says it all friends

Here I am again

Spewing out potentially useless lines

Dipped with the slightest bit of irony

What a masterpiece!

Was that a stretch?

Probably, but then again I haven’t felt

Myself

In what you would call “a while”

A vague and seamless amount of time

That either has no track or the wind blew it away

But hey, that’s okay.

I still exist.

 

Seeking out answers

In the deep mist

On a mysterious ship

With no particular destination

How whimsical!

The rolling waves grow rapid

As my spirit gone vapid

MAN OVERBOARD!

Quick, let’s pull this boat ashore

Washed away…

Oh hey…

I still exist

 

Sitting in a room with two facets of me

The first what could’ve been, the second what could be

They allure words like ‘beauty’ and feign ‘reality’

We sit around a table with two guns in between

Look a little harder and this is what you’ll see…

They taunt and dance and ring around me

And attack at the slightest vulnerability

 

As I gradually fade…

And as my hands tremble and begin to dissipate

It’s either them or me

I squeeze my eyes shut and reach…

 

Oh hey,

I still exist!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Music Favorites | fall edition

It’s that time again… Music favorites, friends! Except this time around, I am coming at you guys with three months worth of tunes. I took a bit of a hiatus from posting on here, so now we have some catching up to do… That being said the title ‘fall edition’ has nothing to do with the songs themselves, but simply the timing in which I was able to post. So enjoy this list of music that I found myself listening to these past few months!

Human – Daughter

Beetlebum – Blur

Cherry Wine – Hozier

From Eden – Hozier

Work Song – Hozier

Streetcar – Daniel Caesar

Get You – Daniel Ceaser

Given – Milky Chance

Blossom – Milky Chance

Breezeblocks – ALT-J

And a cover by Abbey Glover

Where Is My Mind? – Pixies

And a cover by Milky Chance

Crybaby – Lil Peep

Life Update

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Wait a minute… I don’t use an alarm clock and even if I did, chances are I’d sleep through it.

Yawn. Stretch.

Another sleepless night… shit.

Sip. Sip. Sip.

Close my eyes and pretend this coffee is water. Ask myself why I keep doing this to myself.

Anxiety spikes. 

Resume life.

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Food is done. Turn off the microwave. Pretty sure some stuff happened between this and my coffee. It’s a blur.

Blink. Blink. Blink.

That phone screen is bright. Debate getting off social media. Remembers I sometimes like it… stays on and resumes incessant blinking.

AHHHHH!

Is that a spider? Nope, it’s a hairball. Remy, are you shedding? Wait – is that my hair? Hm… let’s call it Remy’s hair anyways.

Beep.

Camera recording. Talking on camera still weirds me out. I never know what to sa- wait… that IS a spider!

AHHHHHH!

Rolled up in a ball, while I debate on potential names FOR my unwanted third roommate…. because the vegan voice in my head refuses to harm him. I dub thee… Sir Spidercus…

The Office theme song plays…

Reached Season 7 Episode 8 in an obscenely short amount of time. Thank you Netflix.

Hahahaha.

You thought I was laughing at The Office? No, I’m laughing at the idea of me actually getting sleep tonight.

Hahahaha. 

Now I’m laughing at the Office.

fin.

 

 

 

 

 

Music Favorites | August 2017

Hello internet friends!

Lately I have been a bit MIA and I apologize for that… I plan on posting here much more often in the months to come! August feels like a bit of a blur to me, but I did find myself listening to plenty of tunes! Here are 5 songs that I have been digging lately:

Miserable Together – 93FeetofSmoke ft. Velvetears

Crimson & Clover – Joan Jett & The Blackhearts

I Wanna Get Better – The Bleachers

Teenage Dirtbag – Wheatus

The Beer – Kimya Dawson

 

Anyways, thank you to those of you who follow and support my blog! I will try and be a better blogger and be a bit more consistent! ♡

Pixi Mesmerizing Eyeshadow Palettes | Review

I recently ordered four of the Pixi Mesmerizing Eyeshadow Palettes off of their website. After owning a few of their face products and loving them, I was quite intrigued to see if their eyeshadows were any good. I searched the interwebs and didn’t find a whole lot of information on how they performed and it made me wonder if it was because they performed poorly OR if I had just found a hidden gem.

 

Each palette costs $12 and comes with six eyeshadows and a little dual-ended sponge applicator. While I’ve never been all that fond of these, I did find a use for them, which I will get into shortly… These palettes are vegan and you can get up to seven different palettes (I bought four).

 

First up, is the Mineral Contour palette… now this was the first palette I tried swatching, and while the swatches pictured came out pretty well, it took some configuring to get this much pigmentation. I noticed that there seemed to be some sort of layer atop each eyeshadow that had to be broken down or warmed up with the applicator before you could truly get a good swatch (this was a problem with all of the palettes). Now that I know this, I am able to get decent swatches and the colors are rather pretty. I have applied this palette to my lids and the colors are quite beautiful and blendable. The black and white shades require a lot of layering for them to be a true black or true white and it can get a bit powdery, so keep that in mind. The best eyeshadow I found in this palette was the fourth one down. It glided on my arm like a dream when swatching and is absolutely stunning on the eye! Overall, I am happy I got this palette as it is quite wearable on a daily basis.

 

Next is Plum Quartz… This palette seemed like a perfect palette to get for the fall season. Overall, the swatches came out beautiful and I found that on this palette, I didn’t need to apply that many layers to get good pigmentation (though I would recommend doing so for the last two shades). I think the color selection is beautiful and would rank this as my second favorite palette!

 

Copper Peach is by far my favorite out of all of these palettes. The shadows swatched so easily and the color pay off was the best out of all the palettes I tried. The color selection is beautiful and compliments each other well. I think this palette is perfect for the summertime as it is a rather warmed tone/glowy palette. I am very curious to see how these shades perform on the eyes… There does seem to be a bit of fall out, but I still consider this palette to be very much worth the $12!

 

The last palette I bought was the ‘Sunset Mattes’ palette. This is the only palette that I didn’t like and as far as I know, it is the only fully matte palette. Not only were these shades extremely difficult to swatch, they were also quite powdery and took far too much effort to build up the pigmentation. Perhaps if you’re fair/light these shadows will show up better, however they didn’t show well on my skin. Still, I wouldn’t recommend this palette because the formula is too powdery.

 

There were a few more palettes that I didn’t try (Aquamarine Dream, Silver Sky & Amethyst Aura), but considering none of them are matte, I would hope they are at least as good as the first three I mentioned. While I most likely will not be collecting the rest of these palettes, I do think the first three are worth trying. Once again, you will have to break down the top layer to truly get the shades to work but after that, they apply beautifully and are super easy to blend. I think starting off with one palette is the way to go so you can get a feel for this formula before dropping too much money, and I would highly recommend trying Copper Peach or Plum Quartz!

 

I hope this quick little swatch and review post helps someone who may be curious in trying these palettes, or if you already own one (or more); helps you get the best use out of them.

Music Favorites | July 2017

This month I found myself listening to a pretty vast list of artists. I’m someone who tends to listen to older music more so than recent tunes, so you’ll find that the majority of my ‘Music Favorites’ consist of songs that aren’t current. Anyways, here is the list of music I found myself listening to this month:

The Vines:

OuttatheWay

Winning Days

Sleeping At Last:

Neptune

The Tallest Man On Earth:

The Dreamer

Oasis:

Champagne Supernova

The Beach Boys:

Wouldn’t It Be Nice

The Everly Brothers:

All I Have To Do Is Dream

Linkin Park:

One More Light (Entire Album)

One Night Only:

Say You Don’t Want It

Jeff Buckley:

Grace (Entire Album)

Soundtrack to ‘Life Is Strange’

All Time Faves

Fleetwood Mac

Fleetwood Mac Portrait

Nirvana

High-Quality-Nirvana-Black-and-White-Wallpaper

The Smiths

SIP-the-smiths-06

The Doors

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Quote of the Day: “The function of music is to release us from the tyranny of conscious thought.” – Sir Thomas Beecham

Question of the Day: What song sets you free?